I have an ulcer.
No really, I do. It totally kicked into gear yesterday and I thought I was going to die. It is ridiculously painful. Stress is completely running a muck through my body. It's total bullshit. I feel better today as I drank a bottle of Maalox and took some Zantac,
I have a ton on my mind. The job search is frustrating as hell. I am in freak out mode about finances. Did I mention that I owed over $2,000 in taxes? Yep. Awesome. My lease is up in September. My money runs out in June. I am losing it.
And Mercury is in retrograde. For real, Mercury...cut it out.
Regardless if you are into astrology or not, you will notice that things are chaotic or messed up around you at random times of the year. Electronics go haywire, communication is general is fubar - whether technical or actual conversation and things just seem difficult. Everything is a mess. When you notice this, go check it out online. I bet anything that Mercury is in retrograde. Basically it slows down, so appears to be going backwards. Many negative events have historically taken place during those periods. Could be a coincidence. All I know is it messes with my shit. And underlying issues come out of the closet.
You cannot hide from your inner feelings. It seems to make the truth come out.
Stupid Mercury.
Retrograde Info
I know I have been very emotional, very stressed, and freaked out on my boyfriend during our visit. I don't mean I yelled at him or something dumb. I was having some rational fears about moving out there and broke down about it. Again, I am in freak out mode. I have a ton of changes that need to take place.
Baby steps. Today, I chill out, write a bit and sleep off the ulcer pain. Tomorrow is another day.
I had a show last night and we could not get the mics to work, Kyle broke his piano, we bought a mic cord that was bad - we finally decided to do an acoustic show. Well, Kyle was plugged in, but not into a system. it actually turned out pretty well. Someone took pictures - I should hopefully have some up soon.
Did you all love "Alice" as much as I did? Of course I loved it. Sass running wild. Between Flo and Alice I learned a lot about giving lip and being sarcastic. Damn, Alice (well the actress that played her) had awesome delivery. I was not a fan of Vera though. I was never a fan of Chrissy on "Three's Company" either. I am not fond of using being dumb as a comedic device. The exception is Vinnie Barbarino on "Welcome Back Kotter" I was down with him. In general, I hate stupid people so do not find it humorous. You should all know this fact about me. You should also know that I am fully aware of my grammatical errors. If that makes me a bit of a hypocrite - whoopsies.
Anyway, Flo. God love her. Gentlemen, sit back for this one, as I am about to get personal. Not a big deal - just a little warning. I was once a snare late for the period and called my girlfriend up when I finally started and it was brutal. All I said to her was "kiss my grits" and she knew what I meant. Flo. Get it?
It was really funny when it happened. I guess it's not that great of a story.
I need a nap. Go watch some Alice and have a great day! Love to you all.
