I am not gonna lie people. I am in a funk. I have been out of work for quite some time now. It's brutal right now, as many of you may know. I am educated, diligent and diversely eperienced. The rejection is killing me softy.
I've worked hard to establish my career path, but thanks to the greed of a few bad men, I got screwed up the butt with a 2 liter of Pepsi; along with many others. I have several friends in the same position that do not work in my industry. One just found a terrific job (after 18 months) , with tremendous pay and benefits. I have to think that my turn is coming.
Truth also be told, I am unbelievably heartbroken. I'll leave that story for another day.
It's difficult to keep your head up. I am generally cantankerous - but it is for the sake of humor. Maybe I watched too much All in the Family as a kid. That and Welcome Back Kotter. So crank and sarcasm reign supreme in my world.
I have always been a bastion of positivity and strength. When things go wrong, people come to me. When they need advice, tough love, compassion, empathy, comfort, or laughter; I am there. It's easy for me to make things better for others; yet it is somehow difficult for me to do those things for myself.
When the person that fixes everything breaks, no one knows what to do. My friends are at a loss. I have had some kindness from strangers and, though that is a small comfort; it is not the same.
You can't hurt steel. At least that's what I have always thought. I was wrong.
And when a tower falls, people do not know how to start fixing it.
I promise I am not always so depressing. This is a dark time for me. I suppose all artists have these periods. Perhaps I will create some masterpieces.
I am going to go downtown tonight to take pictures. I found some great shots last night, but did not have my camera. Hopefully I will see them again...well I won't because it will not be the same; but I hope to get something interesting.
I just had some homemade chicken soup. It didn't really do much for me; but I did realize that I should not eat soup in public because I slurp like a beast. Note to self: never order the soup when on a date.
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