Speaking for myself - you freak out a little.
I have no doubts about my man. It's not even an issue. But my world is about to be turned upside down and I am wigging out.
There are so many things I like about moving to CA. Nice weather and being with him. I am going to go back to school out there. It's really going to be a great new chapter in my life. And, oh my God, fresh fruits and veggies. I am spazzing about that.
There are good things, great things for sure. I am just a person that is slow to change. I usually do need something crazy to happen in order to get me out of my doldrums and vague contentedness.
I am in a panic, I admit, about finances. My money runs out in June, my lease is up in September. We are talking about living together as soon as we can. Though that prospect makes me happy, there is still the feeling of - "oh my god, I have to wrap everything up here, I have to say goodbye to people" It's totally freaking me out.
I am a creature of habit. I am concerned about things like finding a new doctor that I like. Totally random, I know; but I love my doctor. I have been her patient since I was 23. She knows everything about me. I hate the idea of finding a new one.
It's those little things that I am freaking out about. I mean, I've lived in the same apartment for 7 years, with the same landlord for 13. BubblesDeux wants to move out here, maybe she'll sublease my place if I need to move before September.
He's a relationship person, I am a total single girl. It's not a monogamy issue, because I am super down with that. In fact, it's a requirement. I just mean that I am not used to someone being up my butt. I go for days without speaking to people. Like I do not talk to my girlfriends everyday
It's just all happening so fast is all. To be honest, I knew that I was going to find my partner last year. I called it from January 1 of 2010. I told my bestie that 2010 would be a year of completion and I just knew.
After I met him (we spent NYE 2011 weekend together) and talked to her, she was like "in typical fashion - you wait until the last minute"
I run late for everything. Did you all forget?
Will that drive him crazy? Probably. But I warned him from day one. I am just one of those people.
I am going to go for a walk, pick out some plants (like from the store, not from a neighbor's yard can you imagine?), and fill up my flower pots. It was 82 in Chicago yesterday. 82! It's early for that here. I think we have snow or some shit next week. Mother Nature...you silly goose.
Have a glorious day, kittens!
Here's some Sloan for you. The song starts about 2:45 in if you want to fast forward. It's a long video for some reason.
And a live version. I love these guys, even though their last album sucked donkey balls. Their old stuff is magic. Magic, I tell you.
I am not stalking you today, it just feels that way!
ReplyDeleteFor every reason I should have said no to Chato, he has yes.
Distance? He worked for an airline.
I wasn't ready for a relationship?
He was willing to wait.
If I had to go back about a year and a half ago, I'd have put money down on an apartment in Wicker Park and called it a day until I could actually move.
You know what's great? Your friends and family will be supporting you and your decisions regardless of where you are in the country!
That's pretty awesome.
82 degrees? Oh screw NY!
Get your booty out here girl!
ReplyDeleteWhat's funny is I edited this after you read it. I do that. I publish and then change things.
Everyone has been super supportive, which is awesome.
Is it really too late for Chato? Really?
Oh, and Bubbles, you can stalk me anytime. Your kind of stalking is just called love, girl.
ReplyDeleteChange can be stressful, no doubt about it. I imagine winning the lottery wouldn't be, but adjusting to life in a committed relationship, moving across the country, and changing careers, are each significant by themselves. Together, they are... a lot all at once. It's important to account for details. It's necessary to make transitions with familly and friends right. It all requires stepping out of the comfort zone. The promise of a wonderful life together makes it worth it, and it's still not easy. Nothing worth having ever is, it seems. Well, maybe those coconut Hershey's Kisses, but precious little else.
ReplyDeleteFor the record, I'm pretty sure your lateness won't drive me any more crazy than my compulsive punctuality will drive you. It will be sitcom-worthy. Not the inane and boorish ones of today, but the awesome ones from the 80s, with good dialogue, and lovable characters (the Benson theme is still playing in my head).
OK, any man who loves coconut Hershey kisses is a keeper, so you must pack your stuff up quickly and move out West! See how easy that was :)
ReplyDeleteYou know what I told Red this weekend?
ReplyDeleteIf Chato showed up today or ten years for now, it wouldn't be too late.
My heart says that one day, we will get it right.
I missed your call! Stupid boss always talking to me when important people call!
@ Mac - Oooo Lordy, we have more of those Benson episodes to watch. Damn that is some funny shit! I know it will all be fine. It's just so much to take in at once.
ReplyDelete@Smarty - I know it sister! And he makes a mean rice pudding based on my moms recipe. And he treats me like a queen. Keeper for sure!
@ Bubbles - Stupid boss. Call me whenever girl. Hmmmm...that's interesting to hear about Chato. Let's do this. Time for Bubbles to be with THE ONE. It has to happen girl. Like Madonna speak sings "absolutely no regrets"
Smarty, so the answer is to "pack your stuff up quickly and move." I kind of like the sound of that advice. And how come nobody ever told me they now make coconut Hershey kisses!
ReplyDeleteJohn - they are GLORIOUS!! Maybe they are a special for Easter.
ReplyDeleteJohn, I didn't konw about them either. They are awesome. When Arty and I saw them at Target last week, we snapped up a bag post haste. :)
ReplyDeleteAh, my friend, all change, good or bad, is difficult for everyone. These changes, for the most part, are your own decision. How fortunate! However, you're allowed to feel however you feel. Just remember to reach out to your support system. They can't read your mind, hon.
ReplyDeleteWorried about the apartment? Talk to the landlord and see if he/she will let you out of the lease if you find a new tenant. Often, as long as the apartment is rented landlords are willing to make concessions, especially when given ample notice and a good reason. HA! One less stressor.
Reach out, reach out, reach out - regarding the apartment, new doctors, traveling kitty. Apply to FAFSA for financial aide for school. You certainly qualify. Start exploring paid internships in your chosen field by talking to friends or friends of friends in the field.
Lastly, my sweet friend, remember you are the inimitable Arty. Just be you and things will work out.
Take good care of yourself
So I will now have more peeps to visit on the left coast! I am liking this a lot! Do they have hot dogs?
ReplyDeleteI love "happy" even if getting to it takes a bit of time and effort. It's all worth it in the end.
If New England winters didn't exist, I'd be moving in a heartbeat!!
@ Alicia - I amazed sometimes at how well you know me. I know that I have to take baby steps and stop overwhelming.
ReplyDelete@ Red - Nope! No greasy yummy Chicago style food out there!! I think Mac & I should open up a place and show those people how it's done.
Its amazing how politically correct we are about food out here in Cali. People look at you like you're a freak if you order a huge burger or full rack of ribs, even if you're 6' 2" like me, and Arty's right, the hot dog stands are not plentiful in these parts.
ReplyDeleteWe should open a real restaurant. We both know our way around a kitchen.
Arty and Mac . . . . you so need to consider the restaurant idea. Hell! I'd settle for a vendor cart with a killer hot dog....just sayin'
ReplyDeleteOMG Arty!!! I ordered hot dogs and Italian beef from Portillos today! My office is so going to love me next week!!!
Red - we were talking about a cart just the other night! How funny. You are totally going to be Miss Popular tomorrow. I think Vienna Beef also sells kits and to be honest that's where most restaurants out here get their supplies. Check them out online. We will chat soon - I haven't been home.
ReplyDeleteRed! Actually Portillo's beef kit is less expensive? What?!
ReplyDeleteIt all sounds so exciting. I am chuffed to hear it.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite Aussie!! I hope you are well. I have been a snare out of the loop lately. And it is all exciting - lots of changes!
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